Troubled times

My boyfriend is establishing a number of relationships now. He wants to stay with his friends from Athens, but since they have decided to move to Tampa en masse, that problem is solved for the moment. He will be able to go down there and see them anytime he wants, but he doesn't want to live in Florida. I want to live in Florida, but I don't care at all about being near his Athens friends.... And I do care about being near T. So it's still California for me, although I no longer know where Mark is going. I hope he comes with me.

But right now, he is with D. and I am lonely and scared, and I feel stupid for being lonely and scared.

I know I am going to end up calling T. I know I am being foolish.