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I'm starting to try journaling every day. I have already made a mess of today, though. I have two shifts tomorrow, and I didn't get to the N-9 meeting, and I'm still awake.
I was late to work at Johnny's today. Just 10 minutes, but I couldn't stand not getting up on time, and I couldn't stand getting out of bed, and I couldn't stand not QUITE hearing the alarm clock.
I keep thinking Stan will come back online, although he probably went to bed shortly after sending me his last email. Oh, my god, he is always trying to shock me, get to me, turn me on, get my attention. I love it, but sometimes it's embarrassing!
Robyn... Well, that just so had to happen. I don't know if there's enough information in this journal that anyone would care about this introduction of character.... if I didn't know me, would I be able to trace even one story line in here? ... Robyn has been Stan's friend practically since the cradle, and she was in Band with us and the captain of the color guard, which is irrelevant, except that she is definitely 'one of us.'
So, she saw a message from me to him over AIM, and guessed that it was not Tara's handle.... but mine.... she sent him a message saying she wouldn't tell about his 'online girlfriend.' I'm wondering if she believes it is Only Online.
Tug hurt his knee a couple of days ago. I had written about it, but it got lost again. I am learning the pretty strict limitations of the Palm Pilot program. But it was free, so I'm not complaining Mr. nice-program-writing-guy! :)
Tug tore a membrane in his knee, and the doctor said he should NOT Move, but then his boss made him go into work. Twice yesterday he had to go and once today. I was mucho mucho worried, and I fussed at him for taking unnecessary risks.
I felt all kind of stupid, worried about my stuff, worried about Tug, almost angry because he was so quiet, but he was hurting, so what could I do? Nothing. But maybe make it worse a little bit. :(
I went to Mark's and watched Star Trek and stayed to watch West Wing. West Wing Just Kicks Ass.
I hate stupid television, but West Wing is very well presented. Although it comes off like propaganda a lot of time. I only like a couple of people a LOT, and they're mostly the ones who are the 'bad guys,' the ones who are 'too conservative' like C.J.
Mark cried a little tonight, when I pointed out I would be leaving just a few weeks after his birthday. I can't not be sad about this, and knowing I can't help it doesn't make me feel like I should stay.
What a weird life.
I also watched Ally McBeal today at work. If you count being stuck with Beverly Hills 90210 and Chris and his news, that's like 5 hours of TV today. I am broken, obviously.
I feel like a hypochondriac, too. The doctor said there is no sign of a bladder infection, but I still hurt and the medicine isn't helping. I also have a mole on the back of my shoulder that is bothering me, and I need to talk to a dermatologist about it. :(
I was late to work at Johnny's today. Just 10 minutes, but I couldn't stand not getting up on time, and I couldn't stand getting out of bed, and I couldn't stand not QUITE hearing the alarm clock.
I keep thinking Stan will come back online, although he probably went to bed shortly after sending me his last email. Oh, my god, he is always trying to shock me, get to me, turn me on, get my attention. I love it, but sometimes it's embarrassing!
Robyn... Well, that just so had to happen. I don't know if there's enough information in this journal that anyone would care about this introduction of character.... if I didn't know me, would I be able to trace even one story line in here? ... Robyn has been Stan's friend practically since the cradle, and she was in Band with us and the captain of the color guard, which is irrelevant, except that she is definitely 'one of us.'
So, she saw a message from me to him over AIM, and guessed that it was not Tara's handle.... but mine.... she sent him a message saying she wouldn't tell about his 'online girlfriend.' I'm wondering if she believes it is Only Online.
Tug hurt his knee a couple of days ago. I had written about it, but it got lost again. I am learning the pretty strict limitations of the Palm Pilot program. But it was free, so I'm not complaining Mr. nice-program-writing-guy! :)
Tug tore a membrane in his knee, and the doctor said he should NOT Move, but then his boss made him go into work. Twice yesterday he had to go and once today. I was mucho mucho worried, and I fussed at him for taking unnecessary risks.
I felt all kind of stupid, worried about my stuff, worried about Tug, almost angry because he was so quiet, but he was hurting, so what could I do? Nothing. But maybe make it worse a little bit. :(
I went to Mark's and watched Star Trek and stayed to watch West Wing. West Wing Just Kicks Ass.
I hate stupid television, but West Wing is very well presented. Although it comes off like propaganda a lot of time. I only like a couple of people a LOT, and they're mostly the ones who are the 'bad guys,' the ones who are 'too conservative' like C.J.
Mark cried a little tonight, when I pointed out I would be leaving just a few weeks after his birthday. I can't not be sad about this, and knowing I can't help it doesn't make me feel like I should stay.
What a weird life.
I also watched Ally McBeal today at work. If you count being stuck with Beverly Hills 90210 and Chris and his news, that's like 5 hours of TV today. I am broken, obviously.
I feel like a hypochondriac, too. The doctor said there is no sign of a bladder infection, but I still hurt and the medicine isn't helping. I also have a mole on the back of my shoulder that is bothering me, and I need to talk to a dermatologist about it. :(
