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Writing Backwards again.

I didn't like work tonight. Having to do it, needing to do it, this sucked. Needing the money sucked. I know for a fact that if I can stop worrying about it, things will get better. I mean, I'm not likely to have Really Bad Things happen, just things that hurt my ego and my pride.

There seems to be too much to do, and the trip seems too long, but it's something I've always wanted to do. To see the country, as it were. On $10/day or less. I wonder what will happen.

There is still too much stuff to take with me. But there are things I could conceivably sell, if I needed to.

I keep having the urge to write something, but I seem to be angry at the part of me that used to write things. I feel like it will fail me. I'm surprised that I feel that, I am surprised I hadn't noticed.

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In reverse some more.
Today, I worked at Milano's from 6:30-12:30. Before that, Radu and I had dinner, after dropping off a lot of things at the Goodwill store. He loaded and packed things while I sorted, mostly the last two days. I also played Warcraft III and he watched Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon and we had pizza with Wes (weirdly) the night before. I had Brandi over to the house Thursday, as I wrote about earlier, and the day before that I mostly spent traveling, by bus, car, shuttle, foot, escalator, and airplane, back from Key West. It was a long and tiring day.

I want to change things in my life, I want to make it pretty, but I feel like I'm punishing myself.

Tuesday was very strange, spent a good chunk of the evening just wandering aimlessly around Key West, mostly on the edges of the tourist stuff. I tried to eat a piece of key lime pie, but it was awful. And the coffee was very old. Chris and I sat up and picked a lot of old wave music to play when he DJed at Garden of Eden. It was strange, people seemed to like me there, but maybe it's just easier to be a personality when they're expecting you to perform.

Chris called me that afternoon and we talked for a few minutes, he sort of interrupted a conversation I was having, but it was almost a blessing to have a break, it was kind of intense.

Monday, I guess, was one of the cool days, lots of walking, saw the graveyard and a cool used book store.

Sunday was the best day for shopping, with a lot of walking around in the heat, crazy, man.