Many, many thanks go to ![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
heofmanynames and dosferatu for their support last weekend, but particularly heofmanynames for all the hand-holding, pressure points, and driving around. He pointed out in his journal that it somewhat derailed his own recovery from oral surgery. I'm here waiting to pay you back, darling.
I don't even know what to say about it, because it frustrates me and makes me cry, but I can't seem to figure out how to "fix" my relationship with Charlie. I just know I've never loved anyone like this. Does that mean more, better? I don't know. I think it means with myself, for the long term. I'm not always excited about him, I'm not always anxious. Sometimes, though, like last weekend, he's the only person where I feel right, ok, or safe, or something. Dammit. I love him in spite of everything, and it's killing me that we're not together. Great, now I want TWO things beyond hope and reason.
heofmanynames and dosferatu for their support last weekend, but particularly heofmanynames for all the hand-holding, pressure points, and driving around. He pointed out in his journal that it somewhat derailed his own recovery from oral surgery. I'm here waiting to pay you back, darling.I don't even know what to say about it, because it frustrates me and makes me cry, but I can't seem to figure out how to "fix" my relationship with Charlie. I just know I've never loved anyone like this. Does that mean more, better? I don't know. I think it means with myself, for the long term. I'm not always excited about him, I'm not always anxious. Sometimes, though, like last weekend, he's the only person where I feel right, ok, or safe, or something. Dammit. I love him in spite of everything, and it's killing me that we're not together. Great, now I want TWO things beyond hope and reason.
