Weekends

[scyllacat]

Weekends always seem too busy and this one is no exception. Although nominally I have no obligations, I was at the Harry Potter party last night with Janel and Mark and Heather and Puck and Linia and everyone. And this morning, we have spent almost all of our time awake getting ready for a Netherworld cookout -- I need to find my bathing suit and get dressed now that the food is ready.

I need to get my nails done, change the oil, and do a lot of work on my budget. There's some kind of summer solstice thing going on tomorrow and a group meeting. I need to get up to Wes' at some point, but it looks like that's going to have to wait until next weekend.

Wes is talking about moving in with his new girlfriend, Mary, and that just confuses me. I can never not take these things personally. After all, I tried to be nice to him, but I just failed utterly in a way that she never does, apparently.

And it's just fate to him. He still thinks all these things about me that aren't true because he never told me what he actually expected. I didn't take what he said personally, just laughed thinking it was all a joke until one day I found out there really were all these expectations I hadn't been fulfilling, and I still don't know what they were.

I'm glad Mary and he get along, because I like both of them, but I am still angry that I was ousted when I never knew what I was supposed to do right, and I still don't know what I did wrong. And the hard thing about it is it seems like regret, like I want to go back and fix it, but I don't. I don't want to go back and try to second-guess the whole thing.

But I'm sad because I used to like that part of my life, and now I feel like it was as wasted as the rest of it.

Anyway, I'm going to forget this now, and go to this party. And this weekend I am going to get an ID/badge holder and a phone/belt clip so I can work more easily. And some new pens because I like them and they make me feel better. And I'll decide whether I'm going to spoil anyone's HP read. I'm sure Anne-Marie's already got her copy. :)

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[simplysakka.livejournal.com]

You'll be surprised to find out that I *don't*, actually... My girlfriend awesomefemme is getting it for me for my birthday, which is incidentally next Friday. And our movers are coming Thursday to move us into our new house. So between now and then, I wouldn't have time to read it, so it makes no sense for me to have it in my possession since if I DID, all I would want to do is read it, of course! And I have to still pack boxes and move and etc. And there is always the benefit of having someone ELSE buy it for me, since we are not exactly in wonderful financial shape right now.

So... The self-proclaimed Greatest Harry Potter fan will not actually be reading the new book right away. Priorities... (Sad, isn't it?) I've been able to justify this by knowing that it will keep, as long as I can avoid the spoilers. *wink* So please WARN me if you post any!

And by the way, once we are all settled in and unpacked, we'd love to have you and pucketrn over for dinner one night... I will keep you informed. See if you can drag that crazy dosferatu with you. *smile*