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There's all the writing about my life I didn't do before.
I actually did what Janel suggested and went around Dragon*Con with a bottle of pool water having people bless it. I got everything from a confused, "This is what?" to high-melodrama with intoning and everything: This ... is Dragon*Con.
Then there's wanting to be a girl. Watching all the girls go through the haunted house with their boyfriends, clinging to them and thinking that I'm angry this year because I am so aware of not having that girlishness. Before I wondered why I didn't seem to have it. Now, I've had it, and I haven't had it with anyone who could respect me with it, or take care of it.
There's more, but I hate thinking of things and not writing them down at the moment.... and the thoughts keep happening too fast. Disjointed, disconnected, and incomplete. Drat.
I actually did what Janel suggested and went around Dragon*Con with a bottle of pool water having people bless it. I got everything from a confused, "This is what?" to high-melodrama with intoning and everything: This ... is Dragon*Con.
Then there's wanting to be a girl. Watching all the girls go through the haunted house with their boyfriends, clinging to them and thinking that I'm angry this year because I am so aware of not having that girlishness. Before I wondered why I didn't seem to have it. Now, I've had it, and I haven't had it with anyone who could respect me with it, or take care of it.
There's more, but I hate thinking of things and not writing them down at the moment.... and the thoughts keep happening too fast. Disjointed, disconnected, and incomplete. Drat.
