Writing myself

[scyllacat]

I found myself looking for the others today. Found several of them on the lists of friends and friends of friends. I find myself wanting to tell people that I am here, but whom to tell? I don't think my family would think of this the way I do.

I looked at a couple of journals of friends, people I think I know something about, and found myself wondering if I would recognize myself or mutual friends in their words. I wondered if I would find myself writing about them. I wondered if they would recognize themselves if I did.

I wonder why I am always clever when it doesn't matter. I told a guy on ICQ today that I did not want to talk to him. He asked me why. And this spiel came out, almost like a poem.

I'm a nerd. I date my type.
You wouldn't be interested in me anyway.
I'm looking for a hacker, a master, a dom,
a pencil artist, a blues guitarist,
a swing dancer, a Harley rider...
someone who wants to play chess,
understands the value of blasphemy and
knows how to do magic.

Your nickname identifies you with a college --
not even as an institution of learning but as the seat of a sports team.
I'm sure there are 2 million budweiser drinkers who care ...