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I have suddenly gone from being a depressive who will happily and unwittingly sleep for 10 or 11 hours, to being an insomniac who can not only stay up half the night, but will then toss and turn and beat the pillow for the next 6 or 7 hours before giving up. This is completely new.
I have always been a 'don' wanna sleep' kind of person, from the first time my mother 'put me down' for a nap. I hated missing things other people were doing. I hated being excluded from the rest of the world by my youthfulness. And in some way I feared sleep.
I've tried to focus on this feeling, to find out what I am fearing, or if the feeling is something else. But since I don't feel it right now, I don't seem to know what it is at all.
I have always been a 'don' wanna sleep' kind of person, from the first time my mother 'put me down' for a nap. I hated missing things other people were doing. I hated being excluded from the rest of the world by my youthfulness. And in some way I feared sleep.
I've tried to focus on this feeling, to find out what I am fearing, or if the feeling is something else. But since I don't feel it right now, I don't seem to know what it is at all.
