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it's just sinking in for some people
someone pointed out that things "used to be simpler" because you used to be a child.
when people say, "it used to be worse," you believe them. when they say, 'it used to be better,' you (should) mistrust them.
i never expected to be living in this world.
and I'm still trying to figure out why i'm burned out, why i don't want to talk to anyone.
why do i feel like I need to write things down, and then write something else.
personally speaking, i have been really sensitive all day. cannot wake up or stop being hungry or even hit the right keys. finally gave in and took one of the last 4 adderall. i haven't asked in a minute-- it could be worse.
i suppose if I carry on, i might actually use my degree, but most days, i just vaguely remember winston smith talking about a lot of people forgetting about middle-class pleasures.
on the current deep crisis of faith -- i wonder what astrological alignment I've tweaked lately.
i don't know if people are good --if i'm good, if we're no better than our class and our power.
when i see people rationalize terrible things, and I remember the terrible things i have rationalized.
when i think of what I've tried and how I'm just trying to have what I've been saving for later.
and there seem to be two ways I write--with nothing said or with a clown car to unpack.
https://youtu.be/WfgPEh2J9aI?si=OWcg_vR_JKEC1ElR
---I've Seen All Good People: a. Your Move, b. All Good People (2008 Remaster)
someone pointed out that things "used to be simpler" because you used to be a child.
when people say, "it used to be worse," you believe them. when they say, 'it used to be better,' you (should) mistrust them.
i never expected to be living in this world.
and I'm still trying to figure out why i'm burned out, why i don't want to talk to anyone.
why do i feel like I need to write things down, and then write something else.
personally speaking, i have been really sensitive all day. cannot wake up or stop being hungry or even hit the right keys. finally gave in and took one of the last 4 adderall. i haven't asked in a minute-- it could be worse.
i suppose if I carry on, i might actually use my degree, but most days, i just vaguely remember winston smith talking about a lot of people forgetting about middle-class pleasures.
on the current deep crisis of faith -- i wonder what astrological alignment I've tweaked lately.
i don't know if people are good --if i'm good, if we're no better than our class and our power.
when i see people rationalize terrible things, and I remember the terrible things i have rationalized.
when i think of what I've tried and how I'm just trying to have what I've been saving for later.
and there seem to be two ways I write--with nothing said or with a clown car to unpack.
https://youtu.be/WfgPEh2J9aI?si=OWcg_vR_JKEC1ElR
---I've Seen All Good People: a. Your Move, b. All Good People (2008 Remaster)
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