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[scyllacat]

I am such a loser. I can't stand it. My parents spent all this time, and of course, they were right, telling me not to think it was all about boys, and so all I did was chase boys, and finally got the one I was after all along, and what a pitiful broken thing he turned out to be. So I spent most of my life chasing this broken illusion and now I don't even have that, and I'm having to start over. No career, no family, no life. And what do I have? A handful of dates with people who I'm not really sure of, or who aren't sure of me.

I wish I could do something heinous and violent and destructive. I wish I could change something extreme and sudden. And I might.

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[zamiel.livejournal.com]

If you were sure of them, it wouldn't just be "dating," now would it?

Much as I like heinous and violent and sudden, be sure you're ready for that sort of abrupt swerve before you execute it. If you then do so, great! Send me pictures. If not, well, a more subtle and insidious tack might be the answer.